Birthdays

Wow. I had no idea that I have had this blog for almost a year now. Doesn't seem like it. Crazy stuff. I keep reading about blogaversaries and monumental posting amounts...meanwhile ignoring my own. I never was into birthdays and anniversaries anyway. I like to try to focus on everyday.

I can't believe it's Thursday already. Make that, can't blelieve it's April or 2009. Where does the time go? I remember a summer feeling blisfully like forever. I remember being 9 and feeling like I'd never make it to 10. Now? It all passes in a blink of an eye. Now I'm 30 and wondering where the past year went. lol. I'll be 31 later this month. Wowsers. 31. When I started this blog, I was in my 20's (although, only for a moment as I turned 30 a week and half after that).

I'm a little sad. Sad that I'm still struggling with the same issues. That I haven't resolved much of anything, except to focus on it more. But, not much has seemed to change. Yet, maybe it has.

Natalia brought up a good point about not respecting the ones closest to you...including yourself. It's a good lesson to face and realize. I love what she says at the end. Be kind! Be loving! Be patient! I think that may be what my big lesson has been. That I need to be kind, loving and patient with myself. It's something I'm still struggling with, but one I'm getting a grasp on.

And, I've discovered a lot about what doesn't work for me. Like dieting and weighing myself all the time. But, that doesn't mean that I can sit around and be healthy. I need to work on things, but in a "sane", healthy way. Hmm. Maybe I can get older I and wiser? Just a little? :)

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I was going to save something like this for my actual bloggaversary post, but I just realized (thanks Tom!) that I should have stated it here. The one best thing I've gained from this blog is the support of you all! I will leave the rest of the gratitude statement for next week, but realize that I appreciate your support more than you know!