Empowerment

I am still working toward my HYC stuff, especially with my compulsive eating, bad food choices, and exercise.
The thing I want to talk about is being in my zen place (as I call it). With school, money issues (like where the heck is my money tree already?), etc. I am a little high strung. Prone to anxiety and really go a little nutzo when things pop up like the exams coming up that are 1/2 of determining if I get my PhD. But, with it all I find myself not sleeping well and being a general bit**. Something needed to change. So, a couple of weeks ago I decided that enough was enough. I need to destress and keep things in perspective. If you've been following my progress then you've heard me talk about it here and there. I just woke up one morning and decided that the stress was never going to go away (after all, I want to be a professor when I grow up so this stress will ALWAYS be here). So, I'm making a conscious decision to change things.

Well, yesterday I was talking with one of my professors and he mentioned that I "look really healthy", and asked what changed. It's sad that I let all the stress get to me that much, but what good feedback that I'm doing things right. I didn't realize how much I let things get to me. I only hope my students didn't feel it. But, the only thing I am focusing on now is that I'm going in the right direction. Empowerment feels good!