Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Empowerment

I am still working toward my HYC stuff, especially with my compulsive eating, bad food choices, and exercise.
The thing I want to talk about is being in my zen place (as I call it). With school, money issues (like where the heck is my money tree already?), etc. I am a little high strung. Prone to anxiety and really go a little nutzo when things pop up like the exams coming up that are 1/2 of determining if I get my PhD. But, with it all I find myself not sleeping well and being a general bit**. Something needed to change. So, a couple of weeks ago I decided that enough was enough. I need to destress and keep things in perspective. If you've been following my progress then you've heard me talk about it here and there. I just woke up one morning and decided that the stress was never going to go away (after all, I want to be a professor when I grow up so this stress will ALWAYS be here). So, I'm making a conscious decision to change things.

Well, yesterday I was talking with one of my professors and he mentioned that I "look really healthy", and asked what changed. It's sad that I let all the stress get to me that much, but what good feedback that I'm doing things right. I didn't realize how much I let things get to me. I only hope my students didn't feel it. But, the only thing I am focusing on now is that I'm going in the right direction. Empowerment feels good!

6 comments:

Miz said...

this post so reminded me of my husbands experience in law school.
especially the "you look healthy" comment.
he got so stressed frazzled profs were asking him if he were "sick" and they didnt mean a cold.

lifestress can be so debilitating.

good for YOU for working your way back to health.

Felicia said...

This is wonderful! Its so great to hear you are doing so well!! I mean of course life has those dang ups and downs but its how you come out on the other side that counts and by the comment telling you that you look healthy it just proves you are coming out on the other side just wonderfully!

YOU GO GIRL!!

*huggles*
=0)

The Happy Runner said...

This post made me smile. You are taking care of YOU and that is the way it should be. Good for you! And, it's really nice that the change was noticed.

dadivastreet said...

Kudos on letting the stress go! It makes such a difference in what others see when they look at us. Sounds like you are definately going in the right direction!

Mama Bear June said...

Great job on the decision to destress. Keep making healthy choices.
Path to Health

Natalia said...

Good for you Diana!!! :)