Keeping it Real

Thanks for all the support and suggestions!!

Lasserday suggested I look to this post on crankyfitness. If you haven't checked it out yet, please do so. There was a lot that I already knew, but really...we need to hear these things.
http://www.crankyfitness.com/2008/05/why-cant-you-stick-to-your-plan.html
Go there now if you haven't :) And, like I was instructed, the links are great too. I'll have a new link on my blog to this blog for sure!

It really puts things into perspective, and re-iterates what I'm trying to do. I'm trying to do what's good for me instead of instant gratification with long term negatives (bad food, bad spending, etc.). I can actually identify with it now...pretty cool.
I'm in a "harsh reality" stage...and believe it or not it's not making me depressed like it used to. Even the pain and hardness feels good -because it's getting it out in the open. I've been watching a tv show about how you are what you eat. Anyone see it? The lady is kind of mean sometimes (blunt...like usually only guys give to each other ;), but it's stuff people need to hear. She points out their problems, tells them they're fat, and tells them that their food is disguisting. She also does a blood work up and examines their "poo". It's intersting, but she makes some excellent points.
I was opposed to the blunt honesty at first...and to some extent I don't want people that mean to me. But, hearing it in others that do the things that I do inspires me. It makes me want to change. It makes me realize that there's a NEED for change. I've known this, and my hubby and I have talked about it...but instead of feeling sad I feel good about it. Weird, huh?

So, my hubby has offered to cook for me. At first I saw it as control, but I know he means well. I just need to make some choices myself. I'm trying to get all of me better, not just the weight. But, the cool thing? He's going to cook dinner (he doesn't work right now, and I want healthy food...which doesn't happen much when I'm hungry and getting home from school/work). Tonight? He is cooking a mediterranean pizza. Pesto, spinach, feta, mozzarella & chicken. MMMM, MMMM, good!!! And, lower in fat and calories than normal too. Double bonus! I think I like having a house husband. What will I do when he has to work on school again?